My son, Dylan, has decided to cut off all ties with me and anyone who is close to me ... my husband (his step-father), his brother, my parents (his grandparents), etc. This estrangement occurred immediately after he was no longer welcome in our home ... why is beyond this post.
After his departure, he spent about two weeks with friends and paternal family. Afterwards, he moved to an apartment quite a bit away. It has been about two months.
My behavior ever since is not one of remorse or sadness, but of anger, resentment and vengefulness which I realize just today is, simply put, wrong and has probably led to further alienation.
I've spent most of the morning reading, reading, reading on the subject of adult children "divorcing" their parents. Many of them, the first question is whether I want a relationship? Quite frankly, I do not at this point and my behavior was only my need for him to know it is wrong to reject me ... which is not under my control.
So, what do I do now? I guess I have to figure out how to grieve for the loss of my son in my life. I will survive. It hurts and I have to move on.